Like a lot of millennials – roughly 40 percent – I wouldn’t consider myself particularly religious. I don’t know what happens after death. I don’t particularly believe in a higher power. I like what the Jesus in the Gospels had to say, but I wouldn’t necessarily call myself a Christian. But I would definitely call myself Episcopalian. I was raised in the Episcopal Church; my family went every Sunday. (OK, well, almost every Sunday.) Specifically, our home church is the Cathedral of St. Luke in Portland – you know, the big gray stone one on State Street.

Clergy members proceed out of the church following worship service at St. Luke’s Cathedral in Portland on March 15. One of the first Maine churches to hold services over Zoom to prevent the spread of COVID, St. Luke’s closed the building to the public and livestreamed the service. Shawn Patrick Ouellette/Staff Photographer, File

The Episcopal Church is, I think, a good church. It’s not perfect, but then again, only Christ is perfect. (They taught us that in Catholic school, which I attended for 13 years.) I didn’t realize how lucky I was to have grown up in a good church until I was well into adulthood, sort of like how you fail to fully appreciate good parents until you’re an adult because, as a child, they just seem like … regular parents. I was lucky to grow up in a church where women were full and equal spiritual leaders. I was lucky to grow up in a church where queer people, like myself, were loved and accepted for who they were. Christian churches in America have hurt so many LGBTQ people over the years. I don’t remember ever hearing a sermon on the topic of birth control or abstinence. I heard a lot of sermons about helping the poor.

You should come to a service someday, when we can safely be together in person. Mass at the Cathedral is a real treat for the senses – vaulted ceilings, stained glass windows, incense, pipe organ, flowers on the altar, choir.

Unfortunately, over the last several long and miserable months, churches have been the incubators of coronavirus super-spreader events. Sometimes it’s been a tragic accident. Other times, church leadership has deliberately and aggressively gone against best practices for preventing coronavirus transmission. It is bitterly ironic that places of mental, spiritual and sometimes physical healing have become dangerous with sickness.

I have been very impressed with St. Luke’s response to the coronavirus crisis. When the pandemic hit, our church’s leadership decided that keeping everyone in our community safe was the primary goal. We went to Zoom church very early on, and even successfully figured out Zoom Coffee and Juice Hour, which is pretty impressive for a congregation where very few congregants are digital natives. (Like many churches, we trend older – all the more reason to take coronavirus seriously.) I am sure this was a difficult choice, for many reasons, including financial: People tend to be more likely to give when they see others doing so as the collection plate is passed around. St. Luke’s supports a lot of causes, including my favorite, the St. Elizabeth’s Essentials Pantry, where people can get things like toilet paper, diapers and feminine hygiene products. Things you can’t buy with federal SNAP benefits, but are incredibly necessary for day-to-day life, and that are often expensive.

But the church organized. Crafty congregants started making masks; chatty folks formed phone trees. The Advent wreaths will be takeout this year, instead of assembled in the church basement. I can’t say I’m surprised. When my dad was dying, folks from the church formed a meal-delivery and lawn-maintenance brigade for us. We didn’t ask anyone to do those things. They just did them. We take the concept of “beloved community” very seriously.

Plus, there are a lot of things to like about streaming church. For one thing, it eliminates the 45-minute drive to and from Portland on Sunday morning. There is an intimacy to the sermons that you don’t always feel when the preacher is up at the pulpit. Things feel more equal. When my mom sings along to the hymns, I can actually hear her. Mom was trained in theater and has a beautiful alto voice (which, tragically, I did not inherit) but sometimes it gets drowned out by the choir (which is top-notch).

Besides, worshipping quietly in our homes has historical precedent. In the centuries after Christ’s death, when Christianity was forming, the Roman Empire brutally suppressed the growing faith, seeing its radicalism as a threat. Small, secret churches were how the word was passed along. Now churches are threatened again, but not by an empire. By a virus.

Churches aren’t just buildings; churches are the people within them. God doesn’t live in an altar – God lives in the hearts of believers.

I’m going to miss going to the Christmas Eve service this year. It’s being pre-recorded today, Dec. 6. Christmas Eve is the Cathedral at its best – wrapped in greenery, decorated with poinsettias, packed to the gills. The lights are turned down and we sing “Silent Night” by candlelight alone; and then the lights pop back on and we go right into “Joy to the World.” When you leave the church at midnight, you get a feeling of gleeful and wondrous anticipation – like you’re really ready for a child to be born.

Victoria Hugo-Vidal is a Maine millennial. She can be contacted at:
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